The thing I cannot take lying down is that, before getting the facts right, I'm condemned.

After so much I've done. After all that I've tried. I get hurt. You wanna count the number of times? The depth of each slash? It's infinite. Why am I doing all these now? Purely cuz I wanna be Vindicated. Why won't anyone vindicate me? Where's justice at all?

I'm just fighting for myself. Living FOR MYSELF. Like how MY said I should. N now, I'm in the wrong?

I've been fighting for others for so long. Why can't I take a break at all? Why should I be condemned for all my efforts put into something so complexed? Why am I robbed away any chance of redeeming myself from any misery? Why can't I have the rights to protect myself at all? This is so unfair.

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Until the very last minute, I still put in the effort, living for others. Until the day I realised things have gone outta hand, did I give up trying so hard.

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Why don't you people teach me what is kindness? Why don't you people teach me how should I live my FUCKING life? If you think there's a better way for me, so that I won't feel so bullied and accused and at the same time still be a sweet little angel, TEACH ME. YOU FUCKING TEACH ME. ANYTHING NOT HAPPY? YOU TALK TO ME.

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I only wish for a bit of understanding, a bit of compassion towards me, why all I get is everything Mean?

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For the least comfort, I ruined everything myself, I didn't let fate ruin me.