Been really busy these days. Getting into the momentum of real work like finally.

I can't help but wonder why is it that trying to share some stuffs and trying a bit of honesty make me lose an online friend. It was some misunderstandings that made me lose a very very respectable online friend. It just adds on to my list of regrets tho this is a small one.

Feeling rather blue. I can't tell if this is all the side effects of going into full swing of work for a week. My negative side surfaces and I can't turn away this time.

Next week results are coming back. Tho I'm always quite numb towards them, certain stuffs can still make me whine. Playing bball was great. Just wished I had a pro with me. My standards have dropped tremendouly. Felt like killing myself. But at least I felt great just like how it always makes me feel.

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Certain people around us always have sudden weird reactions that make us wonder what were they trying to do? This is especially so when they are people in your life whom you see all the time but seldom talks to. They are like familiar passer-bys but connected in the sense that you are still somehow related to them. When the blue moon comes and some weird stuffs come outta their mouths when talking to you.. you will start to wonder... Should I take their jokes as jokes? Or they meant more? Or it was just one of those times of their crazy sides surfacing?

Those sudden dynamic moments give rise to a weird sense of pleasantness, almost as close as bliss. Nice feelings don't come easily, thus it makes one think. Yet, pondering too much just makes the special moments no longer as glorious and it they will just eventually lose their attractions.

In the end, the best thing to do is to keep these nice little memories from those little people in your life whom you will still see and inevitably smile inside.