Ever since I was young, I was forced to face everything alone. By default of my growing up conditions, I've learnt that I can only depend on myself. My family made me see that only I can solve my own problems and I was also obliged to solve theirs'.

Growing up, I was further instilled into the fact that I can only depend on myself. At my weakest moments, my friends couldn't be there. I tried to lean on anyone/anything, and everything just collapsed. It was painful, but somehow, I managed to survive.

Now, everything was again prevailing the same fact that I've been forced to acknowledge. The same fact that for now and perhaps forever, I'll only have myself, that I can only depend on myself in facing any kinda adversity.

The level of self-sufficient I must acheive, just gets higher as I grow older. Soon to be, I might just become an individual with strong faith in myself and no one else. I don't want things this way. Things aren't supposed to be this way. I guess I wish there will be some miracles in future days ahead.