I'm utterly upset for Ghana!!!! They are still very good with lotsa sportamanship. Brazil is too pro.. Haha.. Ghana's last match and I didn't even watch the whole match! Argh. Thanks to EXAMS.

DArn. Tonight I feel sad for ghana, tomorrow I will be feeling sad for myself. I don't know what is wrong with my brain. I couldn't recall anything that used to be so familiar to me. Argh. It's really frustrating that your brain just turn its back on you when you needed it the most.

I dunno how to get through my stuffs tomorrow. Look at the time now and I'm online. Hahaz. As dead as crap.

I still like Kingson. I still think he's good. I think there's a little cock up in the defense though. Dun really blame him. Appiah n Moah missed some v good chances! Argh. But anyways.. brazil is really too pro. They can get the world cup this year if there are no cock ups. I like Ronaldhino though.. he's so pro at tackling and all n he's so cute! =)

Sigh..

Will I be defeated tomorrow too? =(








Hahaz.. So long..

I have been hearing on radio stations or wadeva that to have real ownership to something is when you can let it go.

We had owned becuz we had let it go. I thank the person who let me go. Or rather I forced my way out. Haha.. N.. the person will never hear this.. but.. thank you and sorry. I dun regret letting go.

If everyone I meet were like that.. I would have peace. But life is supposed to be hard and fucked up like 70 percent of the time.. so yeah... live with it man!





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You know what?

I hate blood suckers. n selfish brats.

I'm reading this book from malachy mcCourt. He said that he took very very long to learn that it is hard to forgive others and let things go because before that, you have to forgive yourself. Till now I don't understand what he meant by that. I dun reckon I will know this in near future as he took almost a lifetime to learn. It must be really hard. I just now that right now, I can't be like him. I dun understand. N I'm not close to understanding.

For now, I dun wanna know.

N I dun understand why should I be involved in stuffs I already showed signs of redrawal.

I've learnt about rights before I turn 18.

Now that I'm 18, I'm going to show how I will make full use of rights.

Yay!!! Cheers to 18!!! It's nice to be 18. Not too old, not too young for a drink. Yippeee!!!!~~~

I just stepped outta my 17 world, bought 4d. Share with a fren. I dun really want it to win.. I want my luck for exams. Hahahaaz.. Lame shit. I wanna bet soccer.. Maybe wait till quarter finals or sthg..

Can't drink this week. Must think for my health and exams. Maybe I'll try whatever I want when the exams are over. Haha.. what a turn off..

I woke up so early today. "Early". I thought it was already 3pm.. But I guess I'm early!!! Needa study.. I'm getting nowhere.. Totally nowhere.. I dunno how to face anyone.. Cuz I'm so dead. Hahaz..

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Yesterday's match was Great!!!! Brazil is so AMAZING!!! Watching them play is such happiness.. They can do MAGIC. I'm so happy they beat Aust with a 2-0. Bet many gamblers who bet that they win will be rejoicing as well.

Okay..

I had a great birthday. Though it was quite a quiet one.. I'm really glad. There are fireworks on my bday night!!! Too bad I didn't get to see.. But wells..









IT'S GREAT TO BE 18!

I was feeling pretty nostalgic. It's true that whatever I've been holding on was actually nothing but air. It slips past your fingers so easily that you can't even stop. I've been silly. Really silly. But it doesn't matter anymore. I know and I've seen how such things fool me around. I will never let the same mistakes eat me up. I told my teacher that and I still hold true.. that I am not dumb enough to let the same mistakes engulf me into the worst misery. Of cuz I didn't put it that bluntly across. But that was what I had meant.

My favourite blogger didn't blog. I guess maybe she's feeling the same as me. Or maybe she has found her things to do and kept herself busy at that. I like to read from her. Whenever I read that someone is struggling past like me, it gives me more reason to go on. Maybe I'm just a pure sadist. Haha.

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Oh the world cup craze just makes me feel more alive. Like at least there's something exciting going on. I'm going to find a cosy place to watch my fav team. But I can't do that for most matches. Becuz sch sucks. Hahaha..

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I've learnt to let go of things that are not worth it. I've learnt to let go without asking why it happens. I don't need a better reason to let go. It takes two hands to clap indeed. It has been a long time. Enough for me to know that whatever it was, it was just not worth it.

Goodbye to all the freaks out there. *smuackz*~
It has been a really lovely time.

Of course, it's good to know that I have the superwoman calibre. Hah.